CHRISTMAS DEVOTIONALS

 I apologize for the late notice. My writers group has been posting devotionals on my author page. I invite you to join in on the fun. 

 

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Relating to the Inner Twelve - Peter

Since the beginning of the year I have discussed each apostle to see if there is one or more with whom we can identify. It's hard to believe that we have reached the last man of the inner circle of Jesus's followers. For many years I thought these men were the only ones who followed Jesus everywhere. Then I read Acts 1:15, 21-22 carefully. There were many others that traveled with Jesus the whole time. Not just twelve men and some women. So when we look at the twelve we can truly say they were the inner circle who received the extra explanations of Jesus.

Our last man is definitely not the least of the group. In fact, Peter is the most regarded of the entourage. He is such a colorful person. He wasn't thundering-explosive like James and John but his well known mistakes and blunders continue to serve as lessons. Some of them, I can relate to more than I want to admit.

Like the rest of the inner twelve, God called Peter to walk away from something he knew and felt secure with, to head toward something only slightly familiar or maybe even totally unknown.  The one difference is as he stepped away from a successful business (with partners and hired workers) into a life following Jesus as a disciple, he also allowed his name to be changed in the process. (John 1, 21; Matt 4) That's something you don't see everyday.

Before the Spirit of God got a hold of him I notice his demeanor takes on an "if He can do it then so can I" bent or an "I know better" attitude. Jesus walked on water, Peter wanted to do it also. (Mt 14) Jesus said he was going to suffer, Peter offered to die with him. (Mt 26) Of course, things being what they were, Peter was shown he wasn't Jesus. He couldn't do the things Jesus could do successfully. Nor did he know better than Jesus about what needed to happen. (Mt 16; Jn 13, 18)

In spite of his mindset, Peter was seen as the leader, evidenced by being mentioned first in the list of apostles. (Mt 10) He was the one who inquired what kind of reward the apostles would receive. (Mt 19) He asked for clarification of the parable in Matthew 15. And gave the confession of faith for the group in John 6 and Matthew 6. 

But even as a leader, have you noticed how often he shows a spastic energy causing him to speak and act before thinking things through? He was going to build tents on top of a mountain with no tools or supplies present. (Mt 17) He wanted Jesus to wash his whole body not just his feet. (Jn 13) He drew a sword and cut off a servant's ear as his form of protection when Jesus was arrested. (Jn 18) He jumped off a boat twice - once in an attempt to walk on water and once to reach Jesus before the others - never mind the boat was a football field away from the shore and he chose to swim with all his clothes on. (Mt 14; Jn 21)

Perhaps it was this spastic energy that caused Peter to set himself up for the greatest attack he experienced before the crucifixion of Jesus. Possibly he thought he had all the courage and guts needed to face any and all opposition. But we see in Matthew 26:33-59, John 18:10-27, and Mark 14:70-71 that he announces a "never" action, fails to recognize the warning Jesus is offering, opts to follow from afar then stops in the middle of a crowd blinded by anger rather than sticking close to John. 

All this set him up for a "bring it on" spiritual attack leading to the failure for which he is known.

It's easy to say he should have been stronger. But have you ever had to change your wording because of those in the room? Or kept your opinion to yourself because the people around you hold opposing viewpoints and you don't think you can defend yourself? Or failed to correct another who's cursing the name of God? The list could go on. How many of us would have dropped the ball too? Especially without the support of another believer. I know I have.

Peter knew he failed when it counted. Yet, even with this fiasco, his love for Jesus did not stop. He risked being seen as he ran from seclusion to check out the empty tomb; racing John all the way. (Lk 24; Jn 20) He exploded off the boat to swim to the shore toward Jesus in hopes of being the first one there. (Jn 21)

Later on that same beach, walking with Jesus by his side, Peter discovered that Jesus forgave him. With each confession of his love for the Messiah, Jesus asked more of Peter in the care of His flock. (Jn 21)

And when the Spirit of God got a hold of Peter, he became the influential man we know him to be. He spoke to a large multi-nation crowd right after the tongues of fire settled on him. (Acts 2) He stood strong in his belief of Jesus when brought before the council. He was arrested for teaching and healing people. He exposed the unrighteous people who pretended to be righteous. (Acts 4, 5, 12) He was thought of as a pillar of the church. (Gal 2:9) He wrote two books to encourage and instruct believers. (1, 2 Peter) Traditionally, he ministered to Jews in Antioch and Corinth, Babylon and Rome. (Note: he took his wife with him as he traveled. See 1 Cor 9.) He was even crucified, but not like Jesus. He was crucified upside down.

Do you have something in your past or present for which you're not sure God can forgive? This forgiveness Peter experienced is here for all of us. We can encounter the same change Peter received. Remember, there is always hope. Scripture tells us, we can do all things through Jesus. (Phil 4:13) And if Peter can do it then so can we.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - John

We're almost done. Only two apostles left to cover. Up next... John, the other half of the Sons of Thunder. 

When I compare the two sets of brothers who followed Jesus, there is a difference I see in the scriptures. Peter and Andrew are rarely in the same scene, leading us to assume they learned their own lessons as students of the Messiah. James and John, on the other hand, while they still had separate situations, they experienced so many lessons together. 

Rebuked for wanting a town destroyed because of the town's rejection of the group. (Lk 9) Watching Jairus's daughter healed. (Lk 8, Mk 5) Experiencing Elijah and Moses speaking with Jesus as he transformed. (Mt 17, Mk 9, Lk 9) Requesting a special position in heaven (Mt 20, Mk 10) Falling asleep when asked to pray and keep watch. (Mt 20, Mk 14, Lk 22) Receiving correction when he and the others stopped outsiders from performing miracles in Jesus's name. (Mk 9)

I am taken by their relationship. How many of us have a relative, or a friend, that continues to closely walk through life lessons with us? What about being part of a group that thinks their way is the only way to worship or do Bible Study? Can you relate to any of this? In some ways, I can.

As I mentioned before, John was his own man. As the younger brother he left the family business for a time to follow John the Baptizer. He ended up living a long life of speaking, teaching, performing miracles, possibly overseeing the seven churches mentioned in Revelation, and writing to the saints. For a time, he was banished to Patmos then freed. And, though many tried to kill him, he was the only apostle to die of natural causes.

Before we look at the post-resurrection John, let's back up a little. In the garden of Gethsemane, he showed guts when he intentionally follows the angry mob that arrests Jesus. How many of us would follow an impassioned group that grabbed a friend or teacher? How many would use a favorable history with the leaders to enter the building where he's taken? Then turn around, make a way through the horde, retrieve a member of the group in order to bring that person through the door into the midst of the crowd? (Jn 18)

John did. But his bravery didn't stop there.

At the cross, surrounded by Roman guards and a taunting crowd, he stood by the women followers as they watched Jesus die. That took courage. Running to the tomb after Mary Magdalene's report took some boldness as well.

But he also had that I-need-to-see-for-myself attitude when he ran to the tomb to check it out. (Jn 20:1-10) Can you relate to wanting to see something for yourself before you accept a report? Unfortunately, I can.

I also see him as being observant. When the group ends up back in Galilee. (Jn 21) He is the first one to recognize Jesus on the beach. I can just see him lighting up when he realizes who's back. Perhaps it sparked a renewed eagerness to learn as much as he could from Jesus.

This drive to keep learning is seen as he shares it all in his writings. And does so with a spirit of humbleness. (Rev 22) We see this as he refers to himself only as the 'other disciple' or 'the disciple Jesus loved' in his gospel. In a word study of these phrases, I had two discoveries. Disciple describes a pupil who once a lesson is heard applies it to his life and adheres to it as his rule of conduct. And, love is the love a father has for a son. Wow. He was learning for keeps, not just the tickling of the ears.

Interesting thought here. He began his time with Jesus as one of the Sons of Thunder, but ended up being entrusted with the care of Jesus's mother. Perhaps, he had changed that much. And knowing change is possible, he encourages believers in their learning and application process in his books. We also see in his writings, he is a man from whom the love of God flows. I love his books.

John is a great example to all of us that no matter how rough the start may be, there is always hope for change. I desire when my time on earth ends that people will be able to see a difference in me between the start and the finish of my life. That my life will reflect an increasing flow of God's love to others.

There are numerous verses in the gospels that mention John. Beyond those you can read about him in: Acts 1, 3, 4, 5, 8, 12; Galatians 2:9; Revelation 1, 10, 22.

Relating To the Inner Twelve - James

For some reason, I have struggled with putting together the post for James even more than with Judas. Maybe it's because I can relate to him in more ways than with the other disciples. Then again, James comes with so much to say.

To begin with, like me, he is the eldest sibling. James is always mentioned with his brother, but he is listed first. Therefore, we can assume he is the oldest of the two. James was the son of Zebedee and Salome. Perhaps he was the more responsible one, or sensible one as he stayed behind with the family business when his younger brother went with Andrew to hear John the Baptizer's teachings. After all, they had much to supervise as they had hired workers in both Bethsaida and Capernaum, as well as being in business with Andrew and Simon Peter. (Luke 5, Mark 1, Matthew 4)

It is important to note that though he stayed back initially, when Jesus appeared in the middle of a workday calling the brothers to follow Him, James joined his brother. He left the work behind and chose to follow this new teacher. (Mark 1, Luke 5)

And speaking of James and his brother John, they are known as the Sons of Thunder. Some translations called the brothers, Boanerges or Benay-Regah, rather than Sons of Thunder. The Greek transliteration is sons of loud shouts or commotion, as in easily angered. But the TPT says it can also mean passionate, while CSB says it can be a fiery and destructive zeal. When I hear the word thunder I think of rumbling in the skies above as a storm rolls in. Not like lightening which instantaneously appears as it strikes an object then just as quickly disappears.

I have an experience that possibly resembles a Sons of Thunder moment. It was during a choir trip to Romania. After the Sunday service our group was surrounded by hands waving in the air in all directions. Shaking and pointing accented the powerfully raised voices as we stood silently observing. I just knew a fight would break out at any moment. My only comfort came from knowing I was among people who loved each other. All they wanted was to share a meal with us.

In any case, trying to picture Sons of Thunder leaves me with several options. One, they grumbled and mumbled about a lesson they heard, maybe between themselves or with others. Or, two, like the believers mentioned above, they discussed loudly, so that everyone in the crowd could hear them. People would know they were coming before they turned the corner. Or was it because they offered to command fire to destroy a village that refused to host Jesus. (Luke 9) In any case, we can say James spoke his mind. 

Just as Jesus accepted Matthew in spite of his past, Jesus tolerated these outbursts of James and his brother. I sometimes speak louder than perhaps a situation calls for - though not as loud as the experience mentioned above. I get that from my biological family whom I've been told argued on the loud side. So in some ways I can relate to the Sons of Thunder title. 

Can you relate to any of this so far? Let's look at more.

James was not just part of the inner twelve, he was included in the closest three students of Jesus. As such he was taken up on a mountaintop in Luke 9, Matthew 17, and Mark 9. It was there that he witnessed not only a transformation of Jesus, but also the appearance of Elijah and Moses, and heard the voice of God the Father. WOW. 

Three interesting things happened on that mountain. One he fell asleep when they first stopped there so he didn't get to see everything that happened. (Luke 9) Two, when he heard the voice of God the Father he fell to the ground face first. (Matthew 17) And he didn't get up until Jesus assured him it was safe. And three, he was trusted to keep a secret until it was the right time to share the occurrence.

But then there's the time when shortly after hearing Jesus was going to face trauma and death, James and his brother had the guts - maybe audacity - to ask Jesus to seat them at his sides in heaven. (Mark 10) Whichever reason it was, James knew Jesus well enough to have the freedom to ask anything. The answer he received was a gentle rebuke resulting in the promise of a tough road before reaching heaven.

I love this aspect. We also have the freedom to ask Jesus anything. Jesus will always answer us truthfully. It may not be the answer we are looking for, but He will speak what needs to be said.

After the episode of falling asleep on the mountaintop, James has another experience of an inability to remain awake while Jesus prayed for a long time (Matthew 26). Following the request to keep watch, James falls asleep. (He did stay awake long enough to hear some of what Jesus lifted in prayer. It is after all recorded in Mark and Matthew.) I can so relate to this. Staying focused as another person does the praying can be challenging at times. I get it.

When we look at his life as a follower of Jesus and all the things he witnessed, he had all that a believer could want. From the outside one would think he was going places... that nothing could stop him because he had the favor of God upon him. But, even when man thinks God's favor will make someone unstoppable, it may not turn out that way. James did preach in Jerusalem and Judea. But, before he could get very far, he was cut off relatively early around AD44. Acts 12 tells us he was struck down by Herod's sword.

I've mentioned how I can relate to James. Did you see anything in James that you can relate to?

There are many passages in which James is mentioned or part of the story: Matthew 4, 10, 17, 26; Mark 1, 3, 5, 9, 10, 14; Luke 5, 6, 8, 9; John 21; Acts 1, 12.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Matthew

 Our next apostle had a mind for numbers and could write well. He was a quiet worker who hailed from Capernaum. He didn't ask questions, but he recorded all he saw and learned, which he eventually put into the first gospel of the Bible.

Matthew, also called Levi, experienced complexities none of the others dealt with as apostles of Jesus. 

First, he came to the group as the Roman government's tax collector with whom the men were acquainted. He knew exactly how they and other Jews viewed him. Like scum. No one liked him. Given the choice, the rest of Jesus's followers wouldn't have chosen him to be part of the inner group that would support and learn from Jesus. But he was chosen by Jesus. So, for some time, he was the outsider to the insider group - the odd man out - so to speak. 

I don't know how long it took, but we can see in the other gospels he is simply called Matthew. In other words, they forgave him. They saw a change in him and accepted him. Including him in as part of the group. He even continued as one of them after the master's death. (Acts 1) However, he never forgot this fact about himself.  Years later when he wrote his gospel, he referred to himself as the "tax-collector".

One has to wonder what he had to do to change the minds of those in the inner circle? Did the dinner party he threw for the group at his house help? Luke 5 mentions it was a great feast with other tax collectors and back-slidden Jews in attendance, thus giving the opportunity for the word to get out to those he knew. Point in fact here, Matthew had a very large house to host all those people.

This brings up another point about Matthew. He was well respected among his fellow tax collectors or they wouldn't have gone to the dinner. I mean, why would they have attended a meal where the man who pulled Matthew away from a profitable business wants to talk to them? Yet, they came to hear what Matthew and Jesus had to say.

By his own writings we know two things. He attended the Sermon on the Mount because he recorded all that Jesus taught. Two long chapters of notes. He shares several stories before he documents Jesus calling him to leave the tax collecting business. Like Andrew, he chose to leave money making behind and follow Jesus when he was called.

Which brings up an interesting aspect of Matthew. He was experienced at handling money as a tax collector, yet he was not given the job of handling the money box. That job was given to Judas, who reportedly over time skimmed funds from the container. How hard was it for Matthew to see that happen? I'm sure he knew he could do a better job.

I can relate to Matthew on so many levels. I sometimes have trouble forgiving myself for past actions that others have long forgotten. It takes reminding myself I am forgiven so that I don't let it bring me despair. I've also been overlooked for jobs and positions for which I was qualified. This has not been an easy thing to experience. But, if I wait long enough I do see God's reason for the let down.

It is through Matthew that Jesus showed the disciples, and us, that He accepts all people. Even those who are thought to be among the lowest sinners. Jesus not only accepts them but calls those rejected by others to be close to Him and in the inner group who follow Him. How sweet is that? Can you relate to that?

Matthew is thought to have preached in Parthia and Ethiopia, where tradition says he died as a martyr. In his gospel you can read how he viewed Jesus as fulfilling prophecy as the Messiah, the King of the Jews, with a focus on His teachings. In the following passages you can read about him: Matthew 9, 10; Mark 2, 3; Luke 5, 6; Acts 1, 5.

Relating to Inner Twelve - Andrew

This week we return to another quiet worker, but one who shows us many good things with which we can identify. He's a great follow-up to the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus. Let's take a look.

In Luke and Mark, Andrew enters the picture as a fisherman from the Bethsaida/Capernaum area. By deduction we know, he had to be a strong muscular man from all the years of pulling in nets filled with fish. The book of Luke tells us he and his brother were business partners with Zebedee's sons, who by the way employed workers. (Luke 5) Knowing this, we can say he was a well-to-do man, not wealthy, but better off than most in those days.

In fact, he owned a house with Simon. One that was large enough to hold extended family in it, and some after-synagogue gatherings. (Mark 1,2,3; Luke 4,8; Matthew 8)

So, in other words, he led a successful life as many might see it. He was in great physical shape, had a thriving business, and a house some may have desired. Yet, we know he was seeking more of God.

How do we know this? He not only went to hear John the Baptist but ended up becoming a student, or disciple, of his. Andrew was there when Jesus walked by after his forty days in the wilderness. When John the Baptist specifically pointed out Jesus as the Son of God (or Lamb of God depending on your translation), Andrew and his friend John followed Jesus immediately without hesitation. This action was repeated again in Matthew 4 when the men were back to work, after spending time with Jesus, and it was now time for Jesus to begin His travels, He came to Andrew's place of business and called for him. Andrew just dropped it all to follow Jesus. No questions asked as far as we know.

I see that he had the right priorities in his life. He didn't allow work or making money to stop him from joining Jesus. I can say that I am not always able to drop what I'm working on and just leave it. I suppose, though, if Jesus were standing there in person and directing me, it might be more easily done.

Before we proceed, I need to back track a moment to focus on one other thing that Andrew did. When he left John the Baptist to follow The Messiah, Andrew spent a short period of time with Him, but then he went to fetch his brother, Simon Peter. (John 1, Luke 4) He was spreading the word of The Messiah's arrival. When you find the truth, do you share it right away? Note Andrew saw for himself first, made sure he had the right information, then reached out to the closest person to him.

So far, he seems to have the ideal attitude and walk with the Lord. But, Andrew's walk with Jesus wasn't without hiccups. He and Philip seemed to be on the same line of thinking when Jesus asked about feeding a massive crowd of people. (John 6) First, Andrew reports about a young boy having five loaves and two fish. Then we see the agreement he has with Philip when he sarcastically in a doubt-filled-manner ends the report with, "... but how far would that go with this huge crowd?" Of course, he gets to experience the answer to his own question. Have you ever told God, sarcastically or not, that it can't be done? Has God ever shown you that the impossible can be done? (Ephesians 3:20-21)

Then there was the time Andrew helped Philip with a request made by Gentile strangers. (John 12) The result... they and everyone around the apostles are told basically Jesus has a greater focus happening. Not exactly the answer they were looking for. On the other hand, we see a different result in Mark 13. Andrew, along with the closest three apostles, wanted to to know about the future and the end of time. So they asked. What they got was a long reply filled with the signs they wanted to know. Andrew wasn't afraid to ask questions - whether he got the answer he wanted or one that seemed out in left field. He asked.

I can relate to Andrew's desire to know the Messiah, it is a daily part of my journey through life. As far as his desire to know details of the end of time, we are all curious. I need to remember to ask Jesus questions, even if the previous reply was not what I wanted to hear. Do you ask questions of the Lord? Do you seek to know Him better? Perhaps, there is a little of Andrew within you as well.

Andrew is said to have preached in Asia Minor, Greece and Scythia before being crucified on an X-shaped cross that is now known as a St. Andrew's cross. There are many verses to peruse regarding Andrew: Matthew 4:18-20, 10:2; Mark 1:16-31, 3:18, 13:1-23; Luke 5:1-11, 6:14; John 1:35-44, 6:8-9, 12:20-22; Acts 1, 5:17-42.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Judas Iscariot

Up to this point I've spent more time on our next apostle than any of the others. Judas Iscariot (also known as Judas son of Simon in John 13). I've been posting the names in the same order I used last time. I wasn't sure whether to keep Judas in this spot, but as it turns out, this is the perfect time to bring him up. After all, we're headed into the celebration of the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ.

Last week we learned we can be on the wrong path for the right reasons, and I have to wonder if Judas fell into this very thing. But there is a difference between Simon the Zealot and Judas Iscariot. In the end, Judas chose not to change what his mind had already decided to do. 

In the beginning, Judas was the only one not from the Galilee area. His last name identified men from Kerioth. In fact, his people looked down on Galileans as crude frontier settlers. And even though the group of apostles must have known this, they still trusted him enough at one point that he was made the treasurer in charge of the moneybox. (John 12:4-6) The TPT in Luke 6 calls him Judas the locksmith - indicating he may have had the key to that moneybox. (This is the only place I found this information.)

Through the three years, he was there with the others listening to Jesus's teachings. Walking and talking with Jesus daily. Basking in His presence. Hearing the explanations and special insights of the parables. He even went out with a partner to perform miracles (Matt 10:1-12) and experience the Holy Spirit moving through him. He also had his feet washed by Jesus. (John 13:5)

But there was one problem.

Judas had a weakness. Money. That love of money opened him up to the influence of evil. He was even warned by Jesus in Mark 14:18-21, Matt 26:14 and John 13:11-27. But he pursued it anyway. As a result, Satan entered him in John 13:12 and Luke 22:3.

What it boils down to...He thought he knew better than the voice of God speaking to him. Possibly, he thought that he was forcing Jesus to show His hand. To show others that He, Jesus, was the Messiah come to save His people from the wicked hand of the Romans.

Here's an awful thought ... Though we may have daily walks and talks with Jesus, how many times do we do the same thing? How many times do we argue with the voice of the Holy Spirit? How many times do we assume we know what He wants? How many times do we think we know better than the warnings friends or fellow church members give us? Do we get so comfortable with our closeness to Jesus that we forget to ask Him if what we want to do is what He wants us to do?

OUCH! I know I can relate to this more than I want to think about.

But, here's where the difference comes in. Judas didn't do his deed out of the kindness of his heart; he asked for money to point out who Jesus was. In Matthew 26 and Mark 14 he even asks how much the priests will pay him to deliver Jesus to them. To back up the possibility of this request, John 12 mentions that Judas would skim money from the group's funds. Apparently, he was not a man with integrity.

Greed and the desire for wealth can overwhelm mankind. Taking control and causing them to do things they might not have done otherwise. It's like they're wearing rose colored glasses.

Matthew 27 is a pop-the-bubble moment when we see Judas comes to his senses and realizes what he'd done. He even tried to correct it, but it was too late. There was no going back.

He had fulfilled prophecy (Psalm 41:9, Zechariah 11:12, Acts 1), and yet the ultimate responsibility of Jesus being tried and crucified fell on his shoulders. And, he knew it. So grief stricken by his own actions, Judas does not offer multiple sacrifices for forgiveness, instead he takes his own life.

While none of us wants to associate any of our nature with Judas, can we learn from him?

Judas Iscariot kept his focus on the ways of the earth and the troubles of life. He took his eyes off Jesus, ignored the teachings he had received, and allowed money to be a bigger goal for him.

It is scary that this can happen to anyone, no matter how close they walk with Jesus. We all have weaknesses. The key to overcoming them is to keep our eyes on Jesus. My hope is that I don't allow any weakness in me to pull my eyes away from the Lord, nor that it opens up any influence of evil and unrighteousness in my actions. What about you?

Unlike the apostles we've spoken about in the past few weeks there is quite a bit written about Judas. You can read about him in these other scriptures: Psalm 41:9; 109:8; Zechariah 11:12; Matthew 10, 26, 27; Mark 3, 14; Luke 6, 22; John 6, 12, 13, 17, 18; Acts 1.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Simon

So many of our Bible studies focus on the outspoken apostles, which makes it easy to overlook the quiet ones. And there are several. Here we have not only another quiet apostle but also one with another popular name. The name Simon occurs several times in the New Testament and refers to a variety of men. Our Simon today is called Simon the Zealot or Simon the Cananaean or Canaanite. (NKJV, AMP)

With so little written about him, what can we learn from or about Simon? Let's see what the descriptors for him tell us.

In some versions he is described as Cananaean or Canaanite. Though he hailed from the Galilee the Canaanite attachment let's the reader know he came from people known to worship other gods. However, I found that in some places it means zealous as well. By definition that means full of zeal, active, devoted or diligent.

Which leads us to the more frequently used descriptor for him . . . The Zealot. Zealots were known to be outspoken for God, stood against the Roman leaders by refusing to pay taxes, willing to use force if needed and take things into their own hands to bring about the kingdom of God. They did not want to sit back and do nothing about Rome occupying their land. For them to do so meant they were abandoning the first commandment. (The Bible Almanac by Packer, Tenney and White. The New Testament Environment by Eduardo Lohse)

So though he didn't speak out enough to have any of his conversations recorded in the gospels, he obviously spoke with zealot-like focus that the others knew where he stood. Hence, he was known as "the zealot". 

However, he obviously changed or slowed down some as he listened to Jesus. It appears he put aside his beliefs and actions to follow the one he saw and learned was the true Messiah. He must have adjusted how he had been acting for years in order to follow the way, the truth, and the life. (John 14:6) He was obedient to the changes Jesus asked of him.

Which is reflective of his name's meanings: 'he has heard' and 'obedient one'. He is our example among the apostles of how we can be on the wrong track even if our reason seems to be for the right purpose. Yet, he demonstrated how we should change our lives and our actions when God redirects us to a different road or path.

I have experienced being on the wrong path for a right reason. I've also charged ahead on a path before checking with the Lord if it was the right timing. How about you? Do you ever feel you are walking against the current? Maybe the timing is wrong. Maybe the timing is right but the place is wrong. As for me, when I feel something is not flowing right and I check with the Lord, Jesus is faithful to stop me in my tracks and get me back where I'm supposed to be. If you find you can relate to this, try calling out to Jesus for a direction check.

As for Simon, tradition holds that he was crucified but no specific location was listed. The apostles are mentioned in Matthew 10:4; Mark 3:18; Luke 6:15; Acts 1:13, 5:17-42.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Thaddaeus

Last week, we spoke about the options taken to differentiate people having the same name. Our apostle this week not only had a same name issue; he also had character concerns.

Depending on your translation and whether you're looking at Matthew 10:3, Mark 3:18, Luke 6:16 or John 14:22 our next apostle is referred to by different translated names. He's known as Labbaeus, Thaddaeus, Judas the son of James, Jude, Judah the son of Jacob, Judas (also called Thaddaeus) the son of James, Judas not Iscariot, or Judas not Judas Iscariot but the other disciple with that name. Now that's a laundry list of nomenclatures.

There was no problem with the two James's, but obviously there was with the two Judas's. I have to wonder if Thaddaeus was continually trying to keep his good name above water. He wanted to make it clear who he was, so he went by his surname.

Can you relate to the desire to keep your good name and character as is? Or changing to a new description so that you can be distinguished from a less than desirable affiliation? Or maybe it was as simple as not knowing how he wanted to be known in this little band of followers? Most translations call him Thaddeus in the gospels of Matthew and Mark, so that's how I'll refer to him.

Thaddaeus hailed from the Galilee and was also a quiet worker for whom I found little information. There is, however, one insight given to us from John.

In John 14, Thaddaeus asks Jesus a question that reflects he was paying attention to the point of reading between the lines of what Jesus was teaching. He knew something was about to change.

He was observant.

I can say there have been times I 'get it' before anyone else does. It has been a satisfying feeling, especially since there are times I'm the last one to understand what is said or implied. I can also relate to the various name changes. Can you relate to either of these two situations?

Traditionally, Thaddaeus preached in Assyria and Persia; dying as a martyr in Persia.

Besides the scriptures mentioned above, the apostles are referenced in Acts 1:13 and 5:17-42.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - James, the son of Alphaeus

Nothing has changed over the years, when friends in a group have the same first name we tend to refer to them by their last name or by a nickname. In Biblical times they would take on  'son of" or 'father of' or 'from the town or city of.'

Our apostle today was named James. There were several others who were named James among the group who followed Jesus, with two of them being apostles.

This James was known as James the son of Alphaeus. Two things stand out to me with this name. One, the name Alphaeus had to be familiar to those who would be reading the writings of the apostles. Two, the name also had to be a significant, respectable name worthy to attach it to James. Otherwise they would have picked some other way to identify this particular James. 

Just a note of interest, there are some who infer that this James is the one referred to as the Lesser or the Younger. There is no direct reference to this James being that particular James. In fact, James the Younger could very well be the younger brother of Jesus. Check out Matthew 27:55-56; Mark 15:40-41; John 19:25-27. Depending on the version you use, the identifying word for that James will vary. 

Getting back to this James... have you ever known someone who was always there, doing their job quietly, listening at all the meetings, knew what was to be done and did it without asking lots of stupid unnecessary questions? Maybe not even getting recognized for their efforts? Watching as others get the credit?

James, son of Alphaeus, was this way.

He had nothing ill spoken of him specifically. He didn't ask questions that brought mention in the gospels.

He isn't noted for spastic acts or standing out in the crowd.

He is a quiet worker who did not receive fanfare down here on earth. But, by his death we know he made a big impact trying to spread the news of the Messiah. You see, after preaching in Palestine, he went to Egypt, more than likely to the Jewish settlements that remained there. In the end, he met with martyrdom by way of crucifixion.

Where I tend to be a foot-in-the-mouth-question-asker and don't relate much to this quiet worker, I do know several who have this temperament. They are a blessing to know. I need to be more like this James. How about you?

You can read about the son of Alphaeus in the following verses: Matthew 10:3; Mark 3:18; Luke 6:15; Acts 1:13;

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Thomas

Ever step out of a room just as something big or funny happens? That's what happened to our next apostle.

The scriptures don't say where Thomas was when the risen Savior appeared to the roomful of followers, it just says he wasn't there. But when he returns and hears what happened, the nature of his comment has been remembered for a long time. Ever heard the negative phrase, "You're such a doubting Thomas."?

In his defense, here's another way to think of it. Have you ever come up to a group of friends who were hysterically laughing over something funny that happened at a party you were unable to attend? A strong feeling of being left out can swell within. Would you feel left out? I know I would. I get this part of Thomas's situation.

All Thomas did was to demand the same thing the rest of the apostles got. He wanted equality. Who knows where he was or why he left the room, but he missed it all. Missed seeing Jesus. Missed the blessing of the Holy Spirit and the commission Jesus spoke over them. Missed it! (John 20:19-25) He was more than likely frustrated, thinking he would never get the opportunity to partake in what everyone else received. I get that feeling.

As I looked at Thomas I saw a few other things.

When Jesus first appeared to the disciples in the upper room, they had not believed Mary Magdalene. In fact, they didn't recognize Jesus when He stood in the middle of the room. Jesus had to show them his hands and side. (vs 20) I have to wonder if they told this to Thomas. Is that why he said he wanted to see those too? Of course, once they saw those sites then they rejoiced. Hmm. So, when Jesus made His statements later in John 20:27-29 was he talking to just Thomas, or to the whole roomful of people? Hmmm.

So, was not being present the only reason Thomas was so frustrated and hesitant in believing what the others said? Let's look at two other episodes with him.

In John 11:7-16, we see Thomas as an encourager with leadership qualities. The apostles didn't want Jesus to go see Lazarus because he might get killed in the process, which is something they didn't want to happen. In fact, they argued with him. But Jesus not only insists on going to see Lazarus, he tells them he has something to show them. With resistance in the air, Thomas is the one who speaks up and basically tells the doubting disciples, "Come on people, let's support our leader, our teacher...even if we die with Him."

Then in John 14:1-6 Jesus brings up that He is going to a place that they know the way to. Thomas asks the question everyone else was probably thinking. In some ways, he was the spokesman for the group. His question shows his heart was ready to go with Jesus and that he didn't want to miss being with Him. Because of his question we see how Jesus is transitioning everyone from thinking in the physical realm to thinking in the spiritual realm.

With these two episodes in mind, I understand the defensive attitude he exhibited when he thought he missed out on a once-in-a-lifetime event. Thankfully, eight days later, Thomas had his request granted. (John 20:26-29)

In closing, here are some other details about Thomas. He hailed from the Galilee and was called the twin, Didymus. Who was he a twin to? No explanation is given. That's one question we have to wait until we get to heaven to hear the answer. Tradition holds that he was a quiet worker in Parthia, Persia, and India. His life ended in martyrdom near Madras at Mount St. Thomas.

The verses where you  can read about Thomas are: Matthew 10:1-4; Mark 3:13-19; Luke 6:12-16; John 11:7-16, 14:1-6, 20:19-29, 21:1-11; Acts 1:12-14

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Nathanael

 Our next apostle is Nathanael, or should I say Bartholomew. He has both names attributed to him. Nathanael means "gift of God". Bartholomew means "son of Tolmai".  Some of the references I looked at said Bartholomew is like a last name. We see in John 21:1-11 Bartholomew is referred to as Nathanael. So, for this post I will just refer to him as Nathanael.

Our time with Nathanael begins in John 1:45-51 when his day is interrupted by his friend Philip. What we can easily over look is that Philip comes from Bethsaida and Nathanael is from Cana. This does indicate that one or both of them traveled the land. Do you find your self traveling about? Meeting new people? Having friends who live in different locations? Maybe you're like Nathanael.

Going back to Philip's arrival... Of all things, Nathanael was asked to follow Philip to see a man from a town that he felt nothing good could come from, Nazareth. The other side of the tracks, so to speak. Have you ever had preconceived thoughts about someone or some place before giving them a chance? Uh huh, I think we all have.

Nathanael has his eyes opened to his wrong way of thinking when he meets this man, Jesus, son of Joseph. He hears something he didn't expect to hear from a stranger. Jesus announces that Nathanael is a true son of Israel, an honest man with no hidden agenda. To be called a true Israelite meant he was a good example of Israel, honest and not cunning, truly living up to the religion of Israel.

Whoa!

Have you ever been given a compliment that you didn't think you deserved? Now you understand what Nathanael was mulling over in his mind.

By his response we know that he didn't feel like he deserved such praise, especially from someone who was not an acquaintance. Asking how Jesus knows this because they had never met... how could Jesus know anything about him? Jesus's answer implies that while others may not have seen Nathanael under a fig tree, He saw him. What was he doing under the tree? No one really knows, but I have read in commentaries that it could refer to praying and being in communion with God. Which makes total sense, especially after the first compliment Jesus gives to Nathanael. In any case, once he realizes that Jesus saw him in a private moment he in turn is able to publicly confess that Jesus truly is the Son of God and King of Israel. (John 1:47-51)

Let me linger here for another moment. Ever wonder if God Almighty sees you? Maybe Nathanael was wondering the same thing... or maybe not. In any case, Jesus tells Nathanael that He saw him. If Jesus saw Nathanael in a place that may have partially hidden him, then He sees us as well... in our hidden places, in our places of searching for Him, in our lonely places...  He sees us too!

None of the gospels mention Nathanael asking questions that were left better unsaid. He probably knew when to keep his mouth shut, or maybe he waited to hear all the details before saying anything. As far as post-resurrection goes, some sources do report that he went to Armenia to preach the gospel and was flayed to death for his teachings.

According to the historian Jerome, Nathanael even wrote a gospel. I'm sure it reached those for whom it was intended even though it didn't make it into the King James Bible.

How I would love to say I have some of what this man possessed ...  no deceit in any part of him, an upright-thinking man who knew when to speak up and when to keep his mouth shut. A man who allowed others to take a closer role with Jesus even though he was the first to confess to Jesus who Jesus truly was. A humble man who watched and absorbed all that took place.

There are aspects of Nathanael that I can relate to even though I don't have all his good qualities. I love that his story affirms how Jesus sees me, no matter where I go or what I suffer, Jesus is watching. That is a wonderful reminder of the hope we have in the Almighty God.

The following verses mention Nathanael: Matthew 10:2-4; Mark 3:16-19; Luke 6:13-16; John 1:45-51, 21:1-11; Acts 1:1-14.

Relating to the Inner Twelve - Phillip

So here we go with the twelve apostles... the inner circle of Jesus. I want to start with Philip. 

He was not the first one called, but he wasn’t the last one either. He is known as being one of the quiet apostles. He didn’t loudly blurt out answers for all to hear. His name means “lover of horses.” Interesting meaning, I think. John 1:46 tells us he’s from Bethsaida, just like Andrew and Peter. According to the Thompson Chain Reference Bible, he preached in Phrygia; dying as a martyr in Hierapolis. 

Upon seeing this point, I reviewed Acts 8. What I read burst my bubble. 

Phillip the apostle is not the same Philip who spoke with the Ethiopian eunuch. Acts 8:1 tells us that the apostles remained in Jerusalem while many of the others were scattered. It's after this that we read the account of the eunuch on the road to Gaza, which is followed by Philip being transported to Azotus. Logically, the Philip in these verses is the recently appointed Philip from Acts 6:5, not the apostle.

Don't be disheartened, though. There's enough written to give us some lessons and points to relate with the Apostle Philip. 

John 1:43 tells us Jesus found Philip. Do you feel like Jesus found you where you were? Calling you to follow Him. How sweet is that?

 

Further in John 1:45-46 we see Philip found his friend Nathanael, and shared the good news with him. He even had to be a little persistent to get him to join in the adventure. Any of us want to share good news, any good news, like that? Perhaps we may need to be as persistent as Philip was. Keep trying to get the good news received.

Sometime after joining Jesus, came the moment when a large group of people needed to be fed. Jesus used this to test Philip. (John 6:5-9) Although, I see it as Jesus using an opportunity to show how he can provide when things look overwhelming. First he showed Philip here's a problem coming - lots of people - lots of hungry people. Then he asked the question, "How can we feed these people?" Granted Philip responded the way many would have...are you kidding? Feed them? All of them? There's no possible way we have enough money with us to feed all of those people? It can't be done. (Author's sanctified imagination used here.) In the end, Andrew mentions a small basket of food that Jesus then uses to feed thousands of people. It was Philip that stated the earthly impossibility while Jesus showed that with Him all things are possible.

 

Next came the time when Philip was addressed by Greeks who wanted a special favor. (John 12:20-23) Not knowing the answer he checked with Andrew. Together they approached Jesus. What they got was a long preparatory statement of the soon coming events followed by God the Father speaking from heaven. Ever asked a question for which you received an answer you weren't expecting? I can relate.

Philip's lessons didn't stop there. Have you ever heard the first part of what was said but stopped listening to the words that followed? Yep, Philip did that too in John 14. He made a statement/request that was answered basically with, "Weren't you paying attention to what I just said?" He has a willingness to believe in all that Jesus will show him; it's just that he didn't pay attention to the details Jesus was sharing. Wasn't his head in the game? How many times have my thoughts not been present in the game? I've been guilty of this. Asking  questions that leave those in close proximity giving me the look...really? In this respect, I can so identify with Philip.

 

Perhaps you haven't had any of these Philip-experiences. Come back next week and see if Nathaniel rings a bell. In the meantime, if you're interested in reading the verses where Philip is specifically mentioned, check these out: John 1:43-46, 6:5-9, 12:20-23; John 14; Matt 10:1-15; Luke 6:12-16; Mark 3:18; Acts 1:13

Relating to the Inner Circle Twelve

I don't know about you, but I think there is some fun to being "in the know". Being a part of the inner circle that knows what a leader is truly thinking and what is going to be said before it's even spoken. To be part of that group can be thrilling but, as we see in the scriptures, it can also be challenging.

Jesus had such a group. We call them the apostles, or disciples. There were twelve of them... Simon Peter, John, James, Philip, Judas son of James (also called Thaddaeus), Judas Iscariot, Andrew, Bartholomew, Thomas, Matthew, James the son of Alphaeus, and Simon the Zealot. Luke 6:12-16 tells us there were more disciples that followed Jesus, but it was the twelve men listed who are called apostles in that chapter.

I'm sure these men felt excited to be chosen by this miracle-performing, authority-speaking/teaching rabbi. Little did they know at the time, being chosen meant they would face challenges and deeper lessons than the masses of followers.

To start with, the only thing these men had in common was their interest in following and learning from Jesus. Few were like minded, or of the same background. I like to think Jesus chose men who might not like each other so that they could learn to be of one mind to glorify the Messiah, to praise God Almighty for the things He was doing. (Romans 15:5-6) As well as, to know others who didn't think like them but could still be called to preach about the Holy One of God.

It's great to see how the Lord loves variety. These men held traits that can still be seen in mankind today. Twelve years ago, (Has it really been that long?) I wrote a series on the disciples to guide us in identifying with one or more of them.  I'm updating those posts and re-publishing them again. One each week. We should be able to find a place among the inner twelve.

What's so cool in our present day walk with Jesus is that He rose from the dead. 

He lives within all those who accept His gift of salvation. Jeremiah 33:3 still applies to us...ask Him and He will tell of great and mighty things... in other words, inner circle knowledge. This means all believers today can be in the know.